It’s been a time of confused and confusing emotions in the build up to leaving. Part of the problem is I don’t want to convey any doubts or fears to my family, friends, supporters and competitors. It seems important to project confidence, excitement and certainty to all and sundry.
Which doesn’t allow much space for your own internal dialogue of hopes fears and ambitions for the event. Also no one outside rallying really gets the demands an event like this makes – the test of machine, preparation, physical attrition, and how cruel dumb luck plays a part. It’s felt a little lonely in the run in as a result – and lonely amidst a crowd of loving friends and family is a disquieting place to be.
I do feel like all my motoring experience and three years hard work have brought me to this point and I know the event will draw on everything I know. Jonathan and I are going to be tested at the highest level. The unanswerable is how good are the other crews and if previous experience of this event will give some of them an edge. If we fail it will not be because we didn’t try our very hardest.